Well, I can't sleep. At first I couldn't remember why and then I looked at the calendar. Today my mom's going to have her surgery. I guess I'm more freaked out about it than I thought. It's weird, When I first found out about it, I was calm...then a few days after that I kinda spazzed a bit, and now I'm calm again. Yeah, I'm worried, but I'm not nearly as panicky as I was last time. For crying out loud, I actually hugged my mom that day. LOL...I think that's the first time in ages I've ever indicated I don't exactly hate her.
I was going to come on here yesterday but I was busy. I've been slowly de-stressing over time. I figure whatever happens, happens and there's nothing I can do to stop it. All I can do is hope for the best, and pray that nothing happens. If so...I might be stuck here for only God knows how long...I might have to adopt my younger sister...eh, I don't want to think about it too much.
Right now I'm just chilling, playing Spider and listening to my MP3 player. I love this thing so much! If there's one thing I can't live without, it's music...heh, it's sad to think how much I spend on CD's and all that shit...good thing I have a job or I'd be SOL.
I can't remember that much about what I did today...Um...Oh yeah. I worked really late last night. Until about 7 AM...so I woke up at about three and decided not to go to any of my classes. I've been really tired lately...Probably just stress.
Oh! I remember now!! I had this really great story idea while I was working in the shoe department yesterday!! Of course I'm not going to write about it here, but I'll talk a bit about my writing.
*stands up* I am a Dragonball Z otaku...and a Bulma/Vegeta romance writer *ducks* I know, I know. There are only about 3 billion of those, right? Heh, heh. Well, I've been around in the DBZ fandom for about 4-5 years (didn't "officially" jump in until I was a sophomore).
I've met some great people and some real losers in my time. Writing for me is an escape from reality. It provides a much needed release for my frustrations (and sometimes it ends up being the source of my frustration, LOL). I love it when people write to say "I liked this part of _____made me think of something that happened to me" or "I really sympathize with your characters because _____". I hate calling them fans (makes me feel kinda snooty) but the people who follow my fics are really important to me. I try to keep up with as many of them as I can but it's not always easy. I've had "fans" from Germany and one from Tabasco, Mexico...and even a few from Asia. It really humbles me to be praised by these people. Why? Well, because I know if they saw me in RL, they'd *never* suspect me of being able to write romance-y stuff. It just doesn't fit my personality *grin*.
I'm much more into action and drama. My idea of a first date movie would be like Hannibal or Die Hard or something. I hate the idea of romance, and yet at the same time I'm kind of drawn to it. What a tangled web we weave, huh?
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